Jesus. [He mutters it, shaking his head. Hard as his situation was, by now he just lets it underline how hard other people's situations can be. But he knows it wasn't always like that.]

I didn't. Just Dutch and Hosea and John, and even those-- I hated 'em. For not having had to deal with that loss. And John, he went away for a year after Jack was born. Hated him for that. Abandoning what he had.