I did this shit for about as long as you've been alive, Carol. I feel pretty sure that it's just easier when people don't fear you period, and that living and working with criminals meant I was dealing with people who, surprise surprise, had a low fucking bar for at what point they'd try to fuck you over.

But let me tell you: I know a good deal when I see one. The respect and power I have now is worth far more than the respect and power I had when all I had to do was look at my partner and he'd dislocate a shoulder or breaking a nose for me.