[Managing not to choke with the help of some water from the sink--she'll pass on the carbonated stuff for now--she goes back to trying each of the pizzas. Everything is good. Maybe she should stop eating like a little squirrel outside of this place, even if her stomach rebels.
As good a time as it's turning out out to be with Tess, she can't help but wish Joel was here for this, too.]
[Tess paces herself a little, but only marginally. She watches Ellie here or there, wondering if she looked like that in the dining hall in those first few weeks she could keep food down at all. Sometimes it feels like it'll take years to eat normally and not like it could be her last.]
Easy there.
[Tess considers having to intervene if Ellie starts going blue.]
What, I have to list every person? Listen. Getting old means you survived that long. I'm not going to complain about it even if they thought I looked like an old hag.
Don't joke. I don't wanna be that old yet, or I don't wanna be in charge of taking care of old people.
[There's the brief, fleeting thought about whether she would have been the one to take care of Joel once old age caught up to him. When he got old, like Eugene, who was sharp as hell until that stroke took him out.
Dumb thought. She'll get him back and figure everything else out from there.]
Yeah? You're one of the youngest people here, I think you'd be stuck being a candy striper.
[She's thinking the exact same thing, actually. It's been a thought before: if Joel lived long enough and they had another decade together, whether she'd be willing to take care of him when he slowed down.]
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She's pretty impressed with herself, actually, pulling off a meal like this.]
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As good a time as it's turning out out to be with Tess, she can't help but wish Joel was here for this, too.]
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Easy there.
[Tess considers having to intervene if Ellie starts going blue.]
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[It's not real so she won't break out, right? Cool.]
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[She's seen pictures.]
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[It's bad enough when your friends know where you live.]
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That's exactly how. People were up my ass at all hours. Fuck that shit.
[Sort of like living on a cramped train.]
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[She thinks she's incredibly motivated when she has a goal in mind. She'll travel hundreds of miles, enter weird space deals...]
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[ Tess doesn’t want to talk about Joel but it does strike her that Joel is pushing this girl from beyond the grave. ]
Sure, kid.
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That's one.
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[It's a compliment, implying she does not actually look like one!]
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[There's the brief, fleeting thought about whether she would have been the one to take care of Joel once old age caught up to him. When he got old, like Eugene, who was sharp as hell until that stroke took him out.
Dumb thought. She'll get him back and figure everything else out from there.]
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[She's thinking the exact same thing, actually. It's been a thought before: if Joel lived long enough and they had another decade together, whether she'd be willing to take care of him when he slowed down.]