Did you see it? That video on the network. That guys an inmate right? Cause if he is, and he's getting to "graduate" and go home, then I don't know what the hell this place wants from me.
You don't know me, but I know you were part of the welcome wagon which means you at least know some stuff about this place.
I'm not talking about my deal, I'm talking about what it means to be put on this ship and to get back to where I was taken from. This guy talks about how he tortured civilians and killed kids but he said sorry so he's off the hook? Do I just have to say "whoops, my bad!" and I'll get a ticket home too?
Everyone has different shit. If you want to get through this place without having a meltdown you have to accept that your shit is not going to look the same as everyone else's.
And I don't think it's about being sorry. I think it's about not doing it again.
Well that's stupid! I'm being judged by the same merits as some usurping baby killer?
This place is about getting a second chance because you died, right? Cause if a guy who talks like that is here, getting out and getting to live...Look. I don't know him, but I know the type. And it's a type that doesn't really change even if they tell you they have.
[ Are they still talking about Pagan? Uhhh don't ask! But seeing that video has filled Rhys with a particular, Jack related kinda dread. Both about what the hell kind of Judgement system this is, and who he could end up stuck here with. ]
No. I'm saying you're judged for you, and I'm judged for me, and Pagan's judged for Pagan. That guy who blew up a planet was judged for his shit, too, and some people... well, who the fuck knows? But I spent a long time here thinking nothing I did was as bad as what some others did and it didn't do shit for me.
And I don't think the second chance is for us. I think it's so we can do good things for someone else, or at the very least do no more harm. Some people are going to graduate even if it makes no sense to you, but what are you going to do? Knuckle under and not try because the system's unfair? Everything's fuckin' unfair.
I don't need to hear "life's unfair" from someone who's never been threatened with a robotic skeleton after working their ass off to
[ long pause before the rest of the message comes in. ]
Hit send too soon. Anyways, nevermind. I don't need the bootstraps lecture. I got plenty fucked over right before I got here so I already know, thanks.
[She considers that she could have made two whole human lives in the same time that she decided to stop depriving others of theirs, and it feels grim.]
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But sure, shoot.
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Did you see it? That video on the network. That guys an inmate right? Cause if he is, and he's getting to "graduate" and go home, then I don't know what the hell this place wants from me.
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We don't know each other, Rhys. What makes you think I can tell you what your deal is?
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I'm not talking about my deal, I'm talking about what it means to be put on this ship and to get back to where I was taken from. This guy talks about how he tortured civilians and killed kids but he said sorry so he's off the hook? Do I just have to say "whoops, my bad!" and I'll get a ticket home too?
Er. Not that I've killed any kids. I haven't.
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And I don't think it's about being sorry. I think it's about not doing it again.
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This place is about getting a second chance because you died, right? Cause if a guy who talks like that is here, getting out and getting to live...Look. I don't know him, but I know the type. And it's a type that doesn't really change even if they tell you they have.
[ Are they still talking about Pagan? Uhhh don't ask! But seeing that video has filled Rhys with a particular, Jack related kinda dread. Both about what the hell kind of Judgement system this is, and who he could end up stuck here with. ]
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And I don't think the second chance is for us. I think it's so we can do good things for someone else, or at the very least do no more harm. Some people are going to graduate even if it makes no sense to you, but what are you going to do? Knuckle under and not try because the system's unfair? Everything's fuckin' unfair.
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[ long pause before the rest of the message comes in. ]
Hit send too soon. Anyways, nevermind. I don't need the bootstraps lecture. I got plenty fucked over right before I got here so I already know, thanks.
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[She considers that she could have made two whole human lives in the same time that she decided to stop depriving others of theirs, and it feels grim.]
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And that Pagan guy?
[ Please say like, 50 years. Minimum. ]
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So what, did you murder 2 child kings?!
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I am 18 months clean from my last child-smuggling incident, no royalty involved.
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Have you done a big confession on the network? Maybe that's all it takes.
[ another long, considering pause. ]
brb.
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